I am Happy

>> Friday, July 24, 2009


One sentence can make me smile broadly and jump!!
I'm as light as a helium ballon.
How easily I am to be happy..

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>> Tuesday, July 21, 2009

从来没试过发烧发到那么严重,连续两天的极端冷热真的要了我的命。

在那一瞬间里,我还真的以为自己快要死去了。
还想着是不是该写下最后的遗言,
打给爸妈的最后一通电话,
抱着吉他弹下最后的一首歌,
真是白痴…

就因为这么一个以为,
这么一个一瞬间的小题大作,
我既然还惊动了凌晨四点在睡觉的朋友晓仪和coursemate意豪,
实在是万分地过意不去。

发烧的第三天,看来渐渐好转了,Thank God!!
只剩咳嗽这死人头,害得我没什么食欲的,难道它不懂吃可是我最爱之一!

接下来的日子,我不要生病了,小病就没什么,已习惯;大病就免了,我还要走更远的路。


你走开!!
别靠近我!!
我讨厌你!!

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The 2nd but last Bon Odori 2009?

>> Sunday, July 19, 2009

Last night went to the 33rd Bon Odori 2009 in Shah Alam, organized by the Japan Club of KL, Japanese School of KL and the Embassy of Japan. This is my second time going to the festival, same place, same dance, same food. Just different people, different weather, different situation. The haze there irritated people, so didn't really enjoyed the festival, kept coughing during the festival and now I am sick because of the haze..

I missed out quite many things in this festival, forgot to bring my camera because of rushing, didn't get the chance to capture down the memories there. Forgot to take more fans. Forgot to take pictures with some forum friends. Forgot to dance all the cultural dance.

But it was fun though, with New Tune friends, Weijie, Jieru, Balia, Ali, Fai, and some others friends. And I bumped into Ku and some ex-schoolmates, surprisingly.

This may be the last Bon Odori of mine, which ended up falling sick. Quite disappointing. I shouldn't have expect alot. Happiness always comes when the expectations are not over the reality.

The only picture I took with my handphone, the rest are with friends' camera and handphones.




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I Promise

>> Thursday, July 16, 2009


New strings for my Bucky have been changed after a year.
I will come back for you.
I promise.

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Frozen

>> Monday, July 13, 2009

Recently, the probability of getting a frozen heart is higher. With a single action or even a single small matter of a person can freeze my heart in a second. Since when my heart is so vulnerable.

Went to Tasik Kejut of UKM for jogging, when is the last time I exercised (besides that one time swimming during 2nd year) in UKM? Oh ya, that was during orientation, that we were forced to do so.

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忘了

>> Saturday, July 11, 2009

忘了如何继续下去
忘了如何去追逐他
忘了如何变得积极
忘了如何抓紧吉他
忘了如何停止拖延
忘了自己现在在哪

忘了
我不要

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It just past again

>> Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Half May, June, half July.

There were 2 months gone, together with my time and experience. In this period of internship, I've learn about life in working, life with not much activities, life without not much friends around, life with the elder family, life with low productivity of music, life with the time just past in a blink of an eye.

Again, I'm getting more and more lonely. Doing things alone, was a shit! Life was a routine during internship, and it was damn boring especially during weekends. Once, I went to a jazz festival all by myself, just to eat time and also wanted to charge my batteries of music. It was great! I mean the festival, the music. Though I did made 2 new friends, but that was like nothing, but I appreciated that. Stupidly I think I skipped a chance to know a new guy there too, yea I'm desperate.

Working was as boring as I thought but was enjoyable enough, maybe there was no tension. I spent my internship like breathing, it just past. I didn't put a lot of feelings and emotions toward the people there, but yet I'm gonna miss the moment I had there once I step on the real working life in the future.

I missed my friends, I missed those persons I cherish, really really did. I can't bare the feelings, but I just have to shallow the feelings. Because I couldn't split it out.

I learn to love my families more, day by day they are getting old. I cared about them more. When people get old, they felt more lonely. And I missed my dogs more. One day, I talked about our late dog, Frisk with my brother. Only that time I learn the date he passed away, or being put to sleep. And my sorry and guilty toward him awoke again after since he died 2 years ago. We cried when talking about him. And my bond with brother reattached because of this.

Low productivity of music babies. I lost and regain, lost and regain the rhythms again and again. Starting to lost hope and faith on this because of some reason. Please don't make it stop, it's all depends on me. I have to be strong on this.

My 3rd and final year in UKM started. With a total new environment, new room, new house and roommates. Will my productivity of music getting even lower? I'm not sure. I had closed myself up because of the surroundings. People around keep changing, I couldn't breathe because of this. This year might be very hard to me. My time is lesser now, the day of decision is getting closer, everything is getting closer now. I'm out of time, out of spirit. I don't want another "it just past" for this final year. I want changes. Will it be any?

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