Packed my bag, with a wallet, an umbrella , a pepper spray and a pack of tissue papers. Around 7.30pm I walked out alone from my dormitory, went to the nearest bus stop. No one was around except 2 girls, one malay and one familiar looking chinese girl. I choose a seat which was not near to them, took out my handphone and headset, inserted the earphones in my ears. Listening to my music in the phone, I wrote down the things I wanted to buy later: instand mee, fruits, biscuits, meats, drinks(obviously all were food, as I was going to restock my food in the room).
There was no reason for me to go out alone at this time, dark obviously, and dangerous for a girl. But without nay thoughts, I just wanted to do this. Quick and free. I wanted to do this without going with friends. Wanted to try being alone, doing stuff at night. Waiting and waiting, almost half an hour, took out my pen and memo pad, trying to write something down. With one of my favourite song playing into my ears, I started to write about how much I missed him, that I would jump
ed into him if he appeared in front of me right now. Silly. If he really did appeared out of no where, for sure I'm shocked and happy. But, instead of jumping into his arms, I could predicted that what I would do, which is sitting there smiling warily to him, saying "Wow! Hey how are you? Why are you doing here?" Damn! And that's me, the coward. Although I missed him, I couldn't do that, I'm too coward to do that.
Almost 8.30pm, the girl beside me was waiting impatiently. Secretly I hoped she won't give up waiting, so I can have her as company. A few buses passed by, all were the wrong buses. I told myself that I will wait until 8.30pm, if the bus still hasn't come I will walked back to the dormitory, after buying some food at the groceries. We waited there again, and a bus came. Two of them went up to the bus, leaving me behind. Cool~ I'm the one who being adandoned again. My watch turn exactly 8.30pm sharp, I stood up and leave the bus stop.
After waited for one hour, I finally gave up wating, gave up on this little adventure. Gave up on myself. Am I doing this right?
