Turning to the calendar of 2011, there goes another year.
I've graduated from university.
I gave up on things that I thought I can let go.
I started working.
I seek and waited for new life.
I got into hardship with people I really care about.
I learn lesson about people.
I lived in the past.
Yet, I still love you 2010.
You gave me great times.
Bye 2010, I loved you.
2011, I will love you.
一开始因为内容不错，有帅哥，所以下载了这部电影，《大叔》。
用了两个小时来看这部戏，每次出现那又帅又有型的镜头的时候都让我每叹气一次，死鬼杀啊~ 当然，还有一些血腥画面也使我倒抽口气的…
元斌那家伙，那充满感情的演技实在是满感人的，电影的最后情节也足以让我包了一粒云吞。
很喜欢这部电影，过后google一下，才知道原来它是今年韩国电影大赏颁奖礼的大赢家，包括最佳男主角，一共拿了七个奖项。嗯，太棒了。
其实另一个重点是它的主题曲，用这首歌来结尾，实在实在是太完美了！虽然不明白她在唱什么，不过它那每一个无法形容的美丽的旋律，还有那破破像Cyndi Lauper/Bjork酱的嗓音，已经深深地印在我脑里了…… 很久没有那种被歌曲感动的激动了，爱爱爱！！Like！！
Mad Soul Child - 《Dear》
You're grieving not only for what you lost, but for the life you had envisioned. You're grieving the future; for all of the plans and dreams you had in your head. Now that's all gone. There is this wonderful saying, "You have to give up the life you've planned to find the life that's waiting for you." All our lives we grow by giving up things. By loss, by moving on. Big Things, little ones. How we handle those losses really defines who we are.All you need is a place where you can talk out loud; where you can hear what you really think. What YOU think. What you want to do and what you don't want to do. And you'll know when it's time to move on.If you don't acknowledge and feel it, it will never get out of your way. Unacknowledged feelings are like a drunken cousin at a family reunion; they never shut up so you can hear anyone else and you have to be able to hear what's next in your life, what path you might want to travel down. You have to be able to see what's there, what's right there, right in front of your eyes. -Nora Walter, Brothers and Sister-In the morning, I was being tagged in this FB note, posted by Clara who quoted it from the TV series Brothers and Sisters. This TV quote, hits the spot hard, very.
2010年10月10日，讨厌死今天了
早上，发了个公事上会发生的恶梦，超逼真，希望星期一开工时顺顺利利
下午，姐妹们的毕业礼，却下大雨，虽然有聚到，可是大家都被雨淋湿，十分狼狈
晚上，虽然是迟早会发生的事 - 今年新调子音乐营的FB照片
看到了每个画面，每个面孔，每个时刻，还真的促进泪腺分泌
我很想念，真的很想念，想到讨厌起命运和认识了你们的自己
真的想到死
笨蛋，是时候要潇洒地放开，只淡淡地想念了
刚进入了另一个人生阶段，就经历了很多的无奈，悲愤和孤独。
那种精神上的疲惫，快让我喘不过气了，觉得我每天都在演戏般过时间，像死人般没有人看见。
连提起勇气开大音乐，大力唱大力弹都没有。
会说什么做个厉害的笨蛋，要爱自己，也是只说给别人听而已，自己却做不到。
一直都在骗别人骗自己的我，简直是笨蛋都不如。
24岁的生日，第一份受到的祝福，既然是来自Hotlink的简讯。
可是可能是习惯了，或者是我手脚实在太快了…
没有读完就把它删除了，不懂有没有错过什么优惠…
kns...
今年的生日，远离家人或朋友，会很无趣呢~
Happy Birthday哦自己 X)
无法形容回到家在听这个录音时的心情
那种感动和不舍，让我在电脑面前下大雨
那些附加的可爱歌词、音效和大家说的话，真让我破涕为笑，破笑为涕
听着每段歌曲，在我脑海里出现着不同的面孔，不同的画面和不同的思念
谢谢新调子，和里面对我而言很重要的那几个人…
你们给了我这大学三年里许多深刻的美好回忆、让我学习与成长、也经历了许多又爱又狠的过程~
有很多话，都说不出口，我只说… I love you 新调子, always do.
This is serious.
I wanna suck myself out of my body and let it to be lonely.
I wanna scream out loud until I can't make any sound.
I wanna, I wanna hate music that it makes me feel so sick.
I wanna close my facebook, msn and never online again.
I wanna run to a sea cliff and jump, or just go being a nun.
I wanna take everyone of you out of my head and forget.
I wanna pull out my eyes, let them bleed, and die.
I wanna...
I wanna say...
I wanna say...
These are just stupid helpless jokes.
But I AM now feeling helpless, tired, frustrated and sad.
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And I am kidding, anyway. I was, not now anymore, after writing such silly things.
Randomness:
I need an anti-lazeworm pesticide.
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当你活了整半个世纪多，孩子大到也能结婚了，却说要离婚…
最不应该做的事，是叫已经七十几岁的老人家去维持大局！
成熟的你们可能以为，这是个尊敬父母的一个举动，
可是一个老人家最不期待的事，是还没喝孙儿的结婚茶，就得见到孩子要闹离婚了…
而且还要被拉去谈判…哎，这实在是心痛不已啊！
请使用你们的理性和判断力来决定自己的人生吧！
别再伤老人家脆弱的心了。
写这个post，是个人想法，是想发一发牢骚。
也是提醒一下自己，以后万一如果发生这样的事，不会有如此的做法…
Randomness:
打开衣柜，不是黑和白就是灰
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It's been over a year having it.
Glad that my happy and sad moments were all because of it.
But I think it's time, for me to get over it and let go.
Thanks for being with me.
This had been very precious to me.
I'm sure that we will gonna meet someday.
But I guess nothing will happen that time.
One thing I'm sure is that,
I will still smile at it.
Thank You, and Bye.
无法想象，当连碰到面的机会都完全是没有时
日子会是怎样的？
我是不是会渐渐地忘掉那每一张亲爱的脸孔
想着一直被逃避着的未来，还真得能促进泪腺分泌
想念，你真是个可恶的东西
现实，你也是
长大，你也一样
时间，我拿你没办法，流吧
终于收到了NTLP的录音，之前学妹已经告诉我当晚录到很差，所以已有了心理准备。
可是，在听的时候我的头皮简直麻掉了！
天啊！为什么会这样子！！根本都不是line-in录啊！！
…… ……
已改变不了什么，只想把心脏给挖空，酱才不会感到失望和心痛。
拔头发也无用，哭天也无用，鬼叫也无用…
Tracie: As always, you just can't help it to repeat things which you would feel so regret after that. You just can't help it. Seriously, you don't know how to love yourself man. What the hell are you thinking!
Tracie: It's done. What can I do more with the guts I've got. That's all. That's all!
Tracie: You're hopeless.
Tracie: You're crazy. Cuz you're talking to yourself.
Randomness:
I almost trip over and fell onto the floor hard just because of that 3 seconds of looking up the sky to look at the beautiful moon. What's wrong to stare at breathtaking things huh.
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Randomness:
Just realize 2010 is Tiger Year, it's my 2nd cycle of another 12 years. Any roaring luck this time? X)
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Randomness:
Never wear specs when you need to wear 3D specs. Go wear contacts!
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Randomness:
My room was totally upside down today. Cuz I was on a mission to kill a spider.
Whooooo that spider was just terribly scary. I think I will have nightmare of it crawling over my bed tonight. Shit.
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